better late than never folks!!

Belated Happy Holidays! hehehehhe!!

well.... its been so long since i faced the monitor. heheh! updates? well... i'm doing good. but as we all know... we're all back to reality. back to work, school... etc. a lot of things happened.. it wasnt the holiday that i expected but its was alright. a good friend of mine had an accident, i almost spent my new year crying on my sister's bed with a terrible headache and many lots more. heheh!! i'm having a hard time uploading pictures here in blogdrive. ewan ba.... so if you guys wana see some pics.. i'll be uploading some in my friendster blog and my yahoo photos. :p

earlier this morning... something unexpected happened. my tatay commented on one of my writings. he accidentally read on of them. and it was a good comment. nagkomento tatay ko na maganda daw yung sinulat ko... and that is a WOW! hehehe!

well... i got nothing else to say.. nagugutom ako. :p

and oh.. i'm sorry for not updating too much. i'm having a hard time managing my blog. :(

Aaaaahhhrrggg!!!!

hahaha!! wow after 10,893 years, nakapagenter ako ng post! kse ganito yun.... may klase ako ng 9:20 ng umaga. edi aga ko nagising diba? tapos paglabas ko umuulan.. sabi ko magtsitsinelas muna ako kaysa heels. kse sa school kailangan kse nakacorporate attire. so yun... nung naglalakad na ako, malapit na ako sa destinasyon ko, yung likod ng pants ko puro putik na! pink pa naman yun! at bagong laba at ang badtrip pa dun... ang ayos ko talaga kanina.. nagmake-up pa ako ng konti! hehehehhe!! tapos ehdi bumalik ako ng bahay..lakad. palit ng pantalon at nagrubbersshoes nalang. tas lakad ulet tapos tryk. nung pagbaba ko ng tryk..naiwan ko pala yung pera ko dun sa pants na hinubad ko!!! grrrrr!!! ehdi umuwi nalang ako! sheeeessshhhh!! nde na ako pumasok at ngayon eh eto.. nagsusulat sa harap ng pc. badtrip talaga! ganu naman ako kamalas na tao ngayon! damnit!!!!!!!

anyway, naku maraming nangyari sa akin. simulan natin dun sa bday bash ng lola ko. eh kse 90 na siya.. we arranged a surprise birthday party for her. may production.. we apos had a dance number, may audio visual presentation pa tas may projector. hehehe! lupet. tapos ang pinakamalupit na gift eh umuwi yung kuya ko galing hongkong! yun nde ko rin alam... kaya ako nasurprise din. sobrang napasigaw sabay iyak ako nung nakita ko siya paguwi ko sa bahay. tapos yun..... mga 4 days lang siya dito. nung umalis na siya...wala iyak nanaman ako. kse nung andito siya, talagang nil-look forward ko umuwi tas nung wala na siya ulet...parang wala nanaman. tas yun. ngayon naman yung gf niya, si ate krisbelle andito. aalis na rin lang siya mamaya. sa hongkong din siya nagtatrabaho.

uhm.. anu pa ba....? well personal problems? i'm trying to put it out of my mind. ngayon. i want to concentrate on making myself happy na lang. its been a while na rin that i cry almost everyday. mahirap.... pero kaya naman. friends are making me smile. :) hehe!

tapos yun........ magpopost din ako ng mga past pictures. hehhe! eh kse yung kuya ko pala, leche ang ganda ng camera niya. yung canon 300D ba yun? ang ganda talaga!!! kaya nung night before siya umalis, nagphoto shoot kme. hehehhe! he's a great photographer by the way. check out some of his works sa kanyang blog. ayun......... eto na muna. nde parin kse ako nakakarecover sa pagkabadtrip ngayon.

GGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!

finally! makakapag post ulet ako! hehhe! well.... i have been very stressed out. midterms eh! sana walang bagsak. buti nalang nagkarn ng mahabang holiday.. :) medyo ok ok na ako. malungkot parin ngunit nakakayanang parin ngumiti kahet na ilang saglit lang.

nakita ko ang mga kaibigan ko dati... namiss ko sila ng sobra! we used to be in a band together... and nalungkot ako kse nde na ako nakakhawak ng gitara ng matagal na. parang napagiwanan nanaman ako. pero ayus lang.. atleast may alam pa rin ako. hehhee! nagyon ko napatunayan na masaya nga pala talaga ang cellphone na may camera ano? hehee! sobrang isang taon nang ganun ang telepono ko pero ngayon ko lang naeenjoy. hehehhe!! kaya eto... mga pictures namin mga magagandang tao sa balat ng lupa! :)

i finally got a little time to post an entry and say a little something about my life. well, school is great. midterms na and the mere thought of the things that has to be done makes me dizzy. hay! bahala na si batman! hehehe!

personal life is not so great but i know it will be. if you read my previous post, then i guess you guys have a pretty much idea what's goin on..? do you? whatever.. dont really wana talk about it... to much talking makes the situation even more complicated. believe me! sometimes, there are some things you ought to keep for yourself.. things that someday, you may depend on to defend yourself.

life can be so tricky.. you really are bound to meet people that'll change your life in an instant. makes you realize things.. may it be bad or good.. and helps you grow up. but then i guess, that's life! there is nothing we can so about it but.. LIVE LIFE. me? i've been hurt, countless times already.. i stumbled and got all bruised up but i stood up. and here i am again, trying my best to get up on my feet again and face the world with no nothing but memories of the past. i wish to believe that past is past.. but i cannot lie. i cannot lie to myself and to everybody else that past is something that is already part of what i am right now. but then.. i'm getting tired. tired of living in the past.. tired of being unhappy.. tired of all of it. i do laugh lot.. most of the time actually and those are REAL laughs.. really! no kidding. :) it's just that there are really some things kept deeper inside of me. but i'm sure i can handle this all right. :) been through bad times and i mean REAL bad times.. so how hard can this be.. right?

well.. i've done too much talking again. hehhe! cant help it though.. my fingers keep punching the keys. hehe! anyway, i'll be posting happy entries soon and more pictures! i wana share with you guys how i spend my days in school.. happy times with friends. :) i've got great friends. will post pictures soon!

missing you all guys!!

and oh! sa lumad ko... maraming salamat. lagi mo ako napapangiti.... :) APIR!

monday
9:58am

life.. is all about taking risks. situations require decisions. may it be minor or major decisions. you will never know if you made the right turn or not until you realize it in the end. whoever invented the saying "nasa huli ang pagsisi" is goddamnend right. i'm not saying that i regret the things that happened in my life. i promised myself not to regret anything. beacuse i know, that with every decision that i make, there is always something, even just if its just a simple thing, that i learn. and that is the key to my next decisions. the risks we take either make our lives simplier or even more complicated. more often than not, when you're placed in a certain situation,feelings act faster than your mind. and in the end, who's there to blame? no one else but yourself. and admitting your own mistake is like chewing you own words. that's when the word PRIDE comes in. me? i've had my pride up above my head and way down under my feet. with the situation i've gotten through, my feelings acted like a hungry lioness feasting on a bunch of steak and my mind like a hanging computer needing to reboot.

Hurting other people is what i hate most, but sometimes, you just cannot avoid it. i've been there, done that to many times and as always, there are no other words left in my mouth but SORRY. but then somehow, i always find myself in that very same situation i've been through. and in the end, i find myself bleeding more than anybody else.

as i write this, i'm sitting on a bench with one hand flickering my cigarette, with people passing me by and cars zooming around. the church bell starts to ring as if saying it's time. time for what? i dont know.. but amidst all this, is a girl who is willing to chew everything up, even her own words and put her pride under her feet once more to make things fall into their right places.

10:36am

hehhehe!

i spent saturday night in a cozy hotel room in Traders! hehhehe! My brother had this gift certificate from ballet philippines.. but since he's in HK na, we used it for our bonding moments. :)

well syempre nde mawawala ang inom... nagulat ako na ang dami kong nainom. pero nde ako laseng..? heheh! drank 6 cans of beer and glasses of champagne. nde nga ako laseng.. para sa akin madami na yun eh. anyway, ayun.. we laughed a lot syempre but wala si kei kaya medyo kulang pa yung mga tawanan namin. it would be much much funny if kei was there. :)

tapos, pumunta dun si squiroon. *smiles* yes my friends.. someone's making me very happy these days.. :)

anyway, since tinuruan ako ni basilisk kung panu maglagay ng maraming picturees...might as well abuse it. hehehe!

newlyweds??nah! brother and sister pretending to be newlyweds!- all in!! - the room

ako, ate p, and kuya jay! - tata gulping down some alcohol - squiroons!!

ayun.. another bonding moment. :) but the sad part is.. i felt like my head's gonna blow up the moment i woke up. feeling ko nga parang mga 10 minutes lang ako nakatulog tas morning na. hassle yun! hehehe! and i will never ever drink champagne again. had the worst hangover the next day!

pero masaya parin ako........ *wide smile and fluttering eyes*

all in!! great place and great company... what else could you ask for. :)


the jollibee road! hahahha! trip nga naman..:)


the guys are all bangag! except pala sa isa dyan.. feeling bangag lang. hehehe!

these are just some of the pics... nagexceed na daw ako sa file storage ko. ito lang yung nagkasya.. panu kaya yun? nde na ako makakaupload ng photos? that's so sad... :( anyway, you can find some of the pics in HERE! :)

oh by the way.. i'm very busy with school so i dont get to bloghop often. and we transferred na rin to our "totoong bahay" na talaga and the internet is here at the office. will hop into your blogs my friends if i get to have the time alright?? missing your reads guys!! :)

I'm back from baguio!!!!!!!!!!!! ang lamig! sobra! apat na magkakapatong yung suot ko eh nanginginig parin ako.. hehe! anyway...eto magkkwento na ako. but not too much details. *grins*

umalis kme ng friday morning..nde na kme pumasok since the 2nd term just started. good thing... wala parin mga profs ko. tapos, we went to fetch a friend in bulacan then off we go. BAGUIO NA ITO!! hehhe! eto talent namin.. we didnt sleep the whole trip! lima kme sa kotse at wala kmeng ginawa kundi magtawanan! and it was really fun.. hehhe! nakipagbonding kme sa tarlac and lots of stop overs. heheh! bawat gas station! heheh! nde naman....hehe! so we arrived around 4pm, nagpahinga nalang kme. cooked dinner, watched tv muna tas syempre shot na. and yea.. medyo wasak ako. not naman sobrang wasak...tipsy lang. heheh! tas yun.. we slept. *winks* during the night..nobody else knows what happened.. but me and.... bweheheh!! uy! napapaisip sila! hahaha!

the next morning..i woke up at 5:32 in the morning! naninibago siguro ako....then nagising ko yung kasama ko tas sabi ko gusto ko ng kape. i cant go back to sleep.. so we got up and kape na. tas higa ulet. so yun na.... that day yung iba nagpunta sa mines view and other tourist's spot. since taga baguio ako dati, i split up with them and met up with some of my friends. tas naglakad ng session and pumunta sa palengke. my friend accompanied me nalang.. tas kasama namin yung boyfriend ng sis ko. sa baguio talaga siya nakatira. ~ayyuuuyaaa! ukinanasiyet! apay ngay kasta!!~ heheh! tribal war na ah!! after the long walk in session and laughtrips with wilson (boyfriend ng sis), umuwi na kme and nagpahinga for a while. i went out to meet up with wilson again. we ate dinner at "oh my gulay" a vegetarian resto owned by none other than kidlat tahimik jr. since member ako ng PALAGENG NASa-STARSTRUCK CLUB, nung nakita ko siya eh talagang nastarstruck talaga ako. pagakyat namin sa resto.. syet para akong nasa heaven. para siyang museum.. basta ang ganda! nde ko nga lang kse nadala camera. oh well.. at home ako sa resto na yun. disappointed nga lang at nde masarap ang kape. lasang tsaa sa sobrang tabang. tas nun.. naglakad kme ulet sa session, bumili ng mga tribal stuff at nagtawanan parin all the way. tas nagpunta kme sa nevada square, malapit lang naman sa tinitirhan namin. eh eto nawasak ako. hehehe! 3 redhorse at isang san mig light. tas kse yung 3 redhorse, sa isang malaking mug.. syempre parang ang bargas naman na ang laki ng mug tas isang maliit na babae tulad ko ang umiinom... kaya nagstraw nalang ako. eh ayun.. after nun, tinamaan ako. eh pero nakakalakad pa ako ng maayos at nakakapagtext ng maayos noh. eh sinundo nalang ako ng mga friendships tas yun natulog na ako. nagising ulet ng 5 ng umaga. tas nde na ako makatulog ulet...

tapos yun na... we fixed our things, then checked-out off the cottage. i was supposed to bring them sa oh my gulay nga lang sarado on sundays kaya sa sizzling plate kme kumain. naimas yah!! hehe! i mean masarap. tas yun.. alis na pauwi ng manila. didnt sleep again the whole trip.. medyo panget nga lang damdam ko nun kse ang saket ng tiyan ko tas hangover pa. wala na akong power tumawa ng todo...hehhe! pero masaya yung pauwi din kse 2 sasakyan na kme.. naguunahan pa. hehe! tas yun.. nakauwi ako mga 11 pm..kwentuhan with my sis habang kumakain ako....

and that's it. end of my baguio trip. sana makabalik ako... yung mahaba-habang stay naman.. :) syempre may mga details na nde na nakasama sa kwento ko. halangan ba ikwento ko pa na may dala pang danggit yung isang kasama namin at naiwan nila yun sa ref?? hehhehe!!